so its made, i added everyone on my friends list, add me back!! muahhh
never_cominback never_cominback never_cominback 

i hate this lj. i never update and when i want to, i feel like its not worth it, since nothing will make sense. i'm making a new one, and i'm adding all of you to it, i hope you except.

once its made i'll also post my new lj sn.

You preferred McCain's statements 67% of the time You preferred Obama's statements 33% of the time Voting purely on the issues you should vote McCain Who would you vote for if you voted on the issues? Find out now!

that was interesting.

i'm realizing that i've met so many amazing people through out my life. people i wish i had taken the chance and time to get to know better. i find myself holding back when it comes to spending time with a lot of people. there are a few exceptions of course, but overall, i haven't had too many great friends... just a lot of wonderful aquaintances and then the given few amazing best friends. its a shame. i want to be more open.

took my mom to the ER this morning because her heart was racing and her arm was losing feeling. so scared. she's okay. just sleeping. i'm worried. i don't want my parents to get old.

i think im going to quit smoking. starting tomorrow, since i just decided right now. lets see how that goes.

victor kept calling me from todd's phone last night. i guess todd and him got super drunk together and had a bonding moment or something. victor was taking him home and needed his address? im really fucking freaked out.

go to jamie for a haircut! at elfi's hair salon!

i'm really in shambles right now. my heart is completely torn in half. i feel crazy.

a long time ago i wrote something about how the format makes me sad. still true. i'm dumb and listening to phil collins, just... i dont know what i'm doing actually. feeling sorry for myself? i dont think so...  i mean, maybe... but i'm not really thinking about me. i wish my dad hadn't called when he did, my moms still on the phone with him, and i really would like to keep talking to her. i'm not really that okay. i'm not always as mature as i tell myself i am. i'm sitting outside smoking a cigarette and its kind of cold. yay monsoons. im dumb.